Chapter Ten - It's not what you think.

As much as Mia didn't want to, she had to go to the 100 club and support her client in singing that night. She had got Robyn a rare spot in the old club that many famous people had once gotten the opportunity to do. It was a right move for Robyn to do this gig. Mia had a lot on her mind and didn't confide in Robyn for advice. Not yet anyways. Sleeping with Zac didn't feel like a mistake, but boy, did she feel bad on Ashley. After catching Ash in the act with another woman, Mia felt he deserved it. Her impulsive actions always found a way to catch up with her. No matter, tonight Robyn had to do well to gain the support of a different crowd. The two waited anxiously behind the stage curtain and Robyn couldn't help but look behind it to see the crowd.
'I told him. I told him to be here at 7:30. Its now nearly 8:30' Robyn sighed upset. After becoming a little bit more serious with Ben she had realised how unreliable he could be. Every date she was left for hours waiting for him. He knew how to grovel, but Robyn couldn't stand his tardiness. She especially wanted him there tonight because she knew how much he liked her singing. Dedicating a song for him would have meant so much to him. She stepped back from the curtain for Mia to have a good look.
'Ben might not be out there, but someone else is' Mia said with a singing tone.
'Who' Robyn ran back to the curtain and saw in her eye line Taylor perched by the bar with a beer in his hand. She couldn't help buy lay a small smile on her face.
'I wonder how he knew about tonight' Robyn questioned and then looked down at Mia. 'Miaaa?' She said dragging her friends name.
'I might have hacked onto your twitter and made it bait were you'd be tonight.' She said talking through her teeth and looking down. Robyn sighed and couldn't help but be annoyed.
'Who exactly are you rooting for? Ben or Tay?' She asked leaning on the wall.
'Does it matter? If ones here I'll know you'll perform to your best ability. You might not say it, but I see the way you look when you talk about Taylor.'
'I'm trying to get over him and your practically inviting him out with us! Miaaa' Robyn turned her face and banged her head lightly on the wall. 'How would you feel if I invited Zac here tonight? No doubt he's gonna come down here after he finds out were Tay is." Robyn said taking her place on stage with the curtain down. She put her hand on the microphone and spoke once more to Mia who had her apologetic look smacked on her face. 'Just make decisions about my career. Not my love life' and with that Mia nodded and watched as the curtain went up on Robyn and the music started. She made her way to the bar and raised her eye brows at Taylor who nodded at her, only taking his eyes of Robyn for a second. After a few songs played Robyn spoke to the crowd.
'I'm not sure if he's here tonight, but I would like to dedicate this song to someone very special to me' whilst she was saying this a sudden urge to say 'Taylor Hanson' came into her brain. Instead she looked in Taylor's direction and smiled at him. He was oblivious that she was talking about him as he hoped the stage lights in her eyes would hide him away from here.
She sang 'Know all about, about your reputation. And now its bound to be a heart break situation. But I can't help it if I'm helpless everytime that I'm in your arms.' She smiled and decided to go into the crowd and belt out the song with all her might. 'You walk in and my strength walks out the door. Say my name and I can't fight it anymore. Oh I know I should go, but I need your touch just too damn much!' Once on the floor of the club she began to seductively walk through the crowds, touching mens cheeks as she walked past them and afterwards them jumping ecstatically in excitement. She had Taylor in her view who was standing straight onlooking her performance. 'Loving you, isn't really something I should do, I shouldn't want to spend my time with you..I should try to be strong. But baby your the right kind of wrong' she never realised how the lyrics of the song fir her life situation with Taylor. She sang the next verse, deciding not to approach Taylor until the turning point of the song. She was feet away from Taylor and she snapped her heads towards him and made her way across the floor to the gorgeous blonde. 'I should try to run. But I just can't seem too, coz everytime I run, your the one I run too' Robyn was right up to Taylor who was looking down at her grinning as she sang the song to him. Her arm that didn't hold the microphone flung across his neck and her leg seductively lifted against his side until the two were dangerously close. Robyn didn't know what was coming over her. She felt powerful knowing Taylor wanted her and he wouldn't object to this. She continued 'OH LOVING YOU! Isn't really something I should do! Shouldn't want to spend my time with you! I should try to be strong (I should tryy) but baby your the right kind of wrong!' As the song and music finished Robyn was breathing heavily and still inches away from Taylor's face and still in his grasp. The two had their eyes locked and as the clapping of fans turned into audible noise Robyn couldn't help but close her eyes as Taylor slowly moved down his lips to Robyn. She frowned thinking about it for a split second and opened her eyes quickly, like she had just woken up from a dream. Her eyes darted around the room and she found someone not clapping. Ben was standing in full view of Robyn and Taylor and Robyn quickly removed Tay's hands from her waist. She lowered her leg from his side and ran back to the stage bowing and smiling. Her eyes were on Ben's unsatisfied face and she knew that she would have to confront him sooner or later. She nodded for him to come back stage. Taylor, still in shock to what had just happened stood there smiling to himself.
Robyn sat patiently at her dressing table waiting for Ben to find his way into her room. She thought back to how bad the situation was. Singing a dedicated song to her ex fiancee instead of her current boyfriend? How would a guy take that? With that a queit knock came to her door.
'Come in' Robyn said loudly.
'Its me' ben said with a sad tone. He walked in and she studied his body language. He was tense with his hands in his pockets. Robyn thought there was no need to beat around the bush.
'What you saw, it wasn't what it looked like' Robyn tried to sound convincing.
'It looks like exactly what it is to me.' Ben said with a stern voice.
'And what is that?' Robyn said standing up and fully facing Ben.
'You still in love with Taylor. You scream his name during sex. You sing our song to him?' Ben was pointing down to his hand listing his argument.
'I wrote that song with him' Robyn muttered just loud enough for ben to hear. He sighed realising how harsh he was being. They had barely been going out for 3 months. She spent 4 years in love with Taylor. He couldn't compete with that. As he saw Robyn was nearly in tears he steadily walked up to her and placed her in his arms. She fitted perfectly to his embrace and let out her tears.
'I may not be Taylor Hanson, but I do trust you and how you feel about me. I can try to be more like him?' Robyn immediatly shook her head and looked up at Ben.
'I'm falling for this Ben. The one hugging me right now' he let out a little sigh and moved Robyns hair from her face behind her ear.
'And I'm falling for this strange, crazy and...beautiful person I'm holding' they hugged it out for another few minutes and kissed eachother until the situation was all forgotten.
Meanwhile..Mia was sorting out her own problems in the mainroom of the club.

Chapter Nine - I missed you

Zac casually opened the door, he had thought it was likely to be the maid to turn down his bed. Instead he was left starring at the girl he had not seen since she was completely off her face, he noticed her blotchy red eyes, even though she had tried her best to hide the evidence off tears, but he knew her too well. Even though she stood there smiling he knew something had happened, her eyes were so sad, her expression was of anxiety and her smile was full of doubting questions.
''Surprised? Yeah me too,'' she said, letting herself in. Waiting for him to welcome her, she searched his face for traces of happiness but it was a blank canvas.
''What are you doing here he questioned?'' He asked,
''Aren't you glad to see me?'' She asked slightly hurt at his response. Zac walked up and down the room, looking at Mia, walking some more, he did a couple laps around the room before walking to Mia, stopping so his face was so close she could feel his warm breathe against her. He looked deep into her eyes, Mia felt awkward, she was never one to be stared at but on this occasion she was paralysed. He placed his hand softly on her cheek, his look was sympathetically as her ran his fingers through her hair. Then his lips were on hers, moving gently, his tongue prodding hers every so often, their lips would always move in such sync together, so naturally, she missed it. Zac wanted to know what had happened before so much, it was killing him to know she had been hurt but he was scared if he let go he would loose her again, he was just happy to have her back in his arms. He led her to his room, she was amazed at the luxury in it, the king sized bed with champagnes and strawberries on the bed side table, she grinned.
''I've missed you'' he whispered into her ears, and kissed her neck. His hands trailed along her body, slowly lifting off her dress. She got free from his embrace and lay herself across the bed,
''Don't leave me waiting'' she said patting the bed. She watched as Zac took off his shirt and jeans and came over to her. She had always loved his body, he had that perfectly toned torso finished off with his californian tan. He lay next to her, noticing that she hadn't changed a bit, her olive skinned body was still in shape, which was flattered by her matching set of red bra and knickers. He couldn't keep his hands off her any longer, she let him push her so her head was on the pillow, undoing her bra and chucking it on the floor. He sucked on her erect nipple while his fingers entered her, he know exactly how to make her wet. She could feel his dick press against her with more and more pressure from Zac, wanting him more and more Mia pulled away and lifting herself to his ear,
''Fuck me already'' she said winking. Zac didn't need to be told twice, he took off his boxers and carefully removed Mia's knickers. They were kissing while he positioned himself in a comfortable position in between Mia's legs, as he entered her a surge of adrenaline ran through Mia's body, forcing her nails into his back. She flung her head back and allowed him to plant numerous kissing on her neck, but this time it was different, good different:
instead of the rough kinky sex that they had both enjoyed before had became gentle and passionate. Their lips barely parted as Zac slowly moved deeply inside her, their hands were always tightly intertwined and they could feel each other's heart beats on their chest. Regardless of this gentle touch he had made her orgasm like never before. As Zac fell breathlessly she realised what was different, they didn't just have sex, they had made love. Which was what Zac was going for.
Zac woke with Mia in his arms, which is what he had been yearning for months. He looked down at Mia, at how peaceful she looked, how her hair fell on her cheek, how her eyelids fluttered while having a dream. She slowly opened her eyes with a dazed look, taking a while to focus her thoughts on what to say she mumbled,
''Morning you'' she looked up and smiled her award winning smile. She rolled over to look at her phone, thirty missed calls and five voicemails from Ashley all begging for forgiveness and her to pick up the phone. Zac could see the distress in her face then,
''What's up? What happened last night before you came here, you had been crying?'' Treading carefully around what he said. Mia wasn't a morning person, she couldn't function properly and usually acted irrationally due to her mind not co-ordinating with her mouth, which was probably why she ended up telling Zac everything that had happened at the gig. She soon realised what a bad idea it was.
''Wait. So you're basically telling me you came to me for a rebound?'' Zac said which made Mia realise that was exactly what it sounded like. But by this time Zac had already gotten out of bed and was fumbling around with his trousers, not wanting things to end like this Mia desperately tried to regain the situation,
''No no, you've got it wrong. Zac don't leave...'' She said as he was walking away. He turned,
''See yourself out whenever you want. Order breakfast, whatever, just as long. As you're out before I arrive back tonight.'' Every word was a dagger that pierced Mia's heart and the final blow was when Zac slammed the door shut. Alone in that big bed she couldn't help but feel just as cheap as that blonde on Ashley's lap last night. There was no point hanging around so she decided to change and leave. As she opened the door she saw Taylor with his key card at the ready,
''Oh,'' he said shocked that she was there. Mia didn't really want to see Taylor but couldn't be rude,
''Hey Tay, you alright? I was just leaving'' she said, hoping that would let her have a quick exit.
''Yeah I'm fine thanks, did you spend the night?'' A question Mia didn't want to answer so just mumbled something about being late to a conference and had to dash, apologising she quickly rushed down the stairs and straight out the hotel.

Chapter Eight - Alcoholic

Mia had decided to make her and Ashley a romantic meal, which actually meant Mia buying a ready made meal and sticking it in the oven. She wouldn't expose him to her awful cooking. She put down the plates of lasagne and they both sat down, getting a bottle of red wine Ashley said to her,
''We're doing a small gig down Brick Lane, it would be nice if you came.'' Watching her fiddling around with the cork opener, trying to figure out how to open the bottle. Ashley huffed and took the bottle, opened it with ease and heavy handily put the bottle in front of Mia. Noticing something was up, she thought better to just go with it,
''Yeah sure I will'' she said with a smile. He watched her pour herself a generous glass of wine.
''Can I ask you something though. I don't want to sound like I'm telling you what to do, but can you limit your drink?'' Mia's shocked face starred back at him, to her it sounded like he thought she had a drinking problem. Sure, she liked to drink when at social events, just to loosen her up, and perhaps she did sometimes go over board. She cringed at the memory of her spewing up her guts on Zac.
''What the fuck is that meant to mean? Actually don't answer that, I know exactly what you meant. You know I think I'm busy that day anyway.'' She sharply replied, even though he hadn't mentioned the date. He stood up and without even saying a word, angrily marched out the apartment, slamming the door behind him. Zac had never been a big fan of Mia's drinking habits either but just accepted it as a tool to enhance her confidence in big crowds. She was so angry at Ashley , at that moment she couldn't care less if she ever saw him again! You convinced? No, nether was she.
She found out where and where the band were playing and decided to play Ashley a surprise visit, entirely sober of course, to give him a chance to apologise. She got to the, what she considered dingy venue two hours into the show so Ashley didn't know she had come. She sat at the back of the crowded room listening to 'Use Ya Head' which they finished with. They went off stage and Mia started to twine her way through the crowds, which wasn't easy to get out of once in. She finally got to the door labelled 'Ashley' and waited for a moment. Why was it her making the first move? He was in the wrong. Then her thoughts stopped when she heard two voices, one she recognised as Ashley but the other was unknown, it wasn't a male voice that was for sure. She swung the door open to find Ashley sat on the settee with a blonde on his lap in her lingerie. She stared speechless at the two in tight embrace making out until they had stopped for air and Ashley looked over.
''How long have you standing there?'' He asked, as if that was the only thing that mattered.
''Long enough to see you sharing more than saliva with that skank!'' She hissed making eye contact with the blonde. Ashley looked at the blonde wondering why she was still sitting on his lap, pushing her roughly off he ran to Mia,
''Its not what you think'' he pleaded the cliche.
''Well it didn't look like you were discussing quantum physics! Unless the explanation was in her mouth. She quickly replied. She could feel that ball in her throat pounding, she couldn't breathe, her eyes were slowly filling up, she had to get out of there before she burst into hysterics. With that she left, not ran, not hurried, just strowled out of there.

Chapter Seven - Taylor?

Where she was driving, she didn't care. Who she was going to see, it didn't phase her. All Robyn knew is that she needed to be with someone not involved with the messed up situation she was in. She needed to be cradled and held, even if it just was for a minute. Her car stood at the crossroads. One way would be back to the flat to Mia and probably Ashley. She slanted her mouth reluctant to go home. She clicked her indicator 'right' and made her way to Nottinghill to see Ben. Coming unannounced was probably not the nicest thing to do, but her blotchy eyes and red face would be more than excuse for Ben to let her in. After meeting Ben at the premiere Robyn was smitten. His olive skin and deep brown eyes would captivate her into random stares. She thought how different both Tay and Ben were. Taylor was blonde and blue eyed with an immense sense of humour. He always knew how to make Robyn smile. Ben, however, was sensitive but sexy at the same time. He had convinced Robyn that he was nothing like Dorian Gray, which she found slightly relieving. His cool and calm nature would make Robyn also feel collected around him and act like herself. Not once did she embaress herself to the point of turning beetroot red. She smiled at how sincere he always was. Its not like he never tried to have sex with her. She remembered a night in with him, they almost did it but just before it all happened Robyn flinched away and ran into the bathroom. Ben spent the next hour convincing her that there is absolutely no rush. Sex was not a priority to him. BULLSHIT. Of course it was, but he thought Robyn was worth the wait. She couldn't help but think, if she wasn't famous would he give her the time of day. Well, they would have never met if she wasn't a VIP to most venues. She hated how she thought of every single fact about everything! She bit her lip in anxiety waiting at a temporary traffic light. 'Great, more time for me to wollow in my thoughts' She decided to play the Radio. Daniel Bedingfield came on 'if your not the one' Robyn forced herself to listen to the slow love song and immediately switched it off after the chorus. She couldn't get to Ben's quick enough. She rang his buzzer and impatiently waited for him to answer.

'Heeellooo?' She laughed and said 'its moi' he recognised her siron voice and buzzed her in.
'Well this is a surprise' he said putting down a magazine on his marble counter. Robyn stood in the doorway and saw him standing in nothing but grey tracksuit bottoms. Three guesses what he'd been doing all day. She rolled her eyes and ran up to him, kissing him and standing on the balls of her feet to reach his lips. It was rare for her to find such a tall lean guy. He kissed her back and pressed her body towards him. 'How are you after last night? Your beautiful but you look tired' he said taking her over to his massive leather couch.
Robyn groaned and rested her head on his chest looking up at him 'how is it you still look like a sex god after in taking so much shit. I swear, comedowns are a good look for you" Robyn joked as he tickled her for the comment. After a minute or two of play fighting the two relaxed and Robyn felt as if she could melt into Ben. She couldn't help but watch his every move. How his jaw moved as he spoke. When he would crack a smile and how his eyes moved around the room, always catching her out looking at him. She couldn't hold back anymore. She lifted her head from his lap and grabbed the back of his neck. He instantly responded and kissed her back with passion and lust. She straddled herself around his waist and placed herself comfortably leaning down onto his neck, place her full lips on his bare skin. He got shivers as her fingertips slowly bushed his back. He decided to make a big move and remove her white top over her head. She let him and thanked god she was wearing a relatively sexy bra. A hot pink lace which opened at the front. Ben also thanked god. He was always such a clumsy fool when it came to bras. He couldn't help but think Robyn was about to pop out of the bra, so he saved her humiliation and opened it up. 'Hey!' Robyn said as he placed his lips on her chest. 'What? Now we're both even' he joked bringing his face back to hers. She whispered in his ear 'well not exactly...I'm not wearing any underwear' Bens mouth dropped and he grinned. With that he scooped Robyn in his arms, her legs still wrapped around him. He laid her on the bed and stood back 'I don't believe you' Robyn sat up on her knees with a pouty look. She removed her black leggings slowly and teased Ben by turning around to show her round, apple bum. Once the leggings were of she was completely naked. 'Now do you believe me?' She said laying back on the bed with a seductive look in her eye.' Ben's mouth went dry and he couldn't speak. Robyn was on his bed naked. Why wasn't he reacting?

 'What's wrong?' Robyn said suddenly feeling self conscious as she began to cover herself. 'No no no, nothing. I just want to do this properly. No games. I want you to know that you mean a lot to me and we should only do this if your ready.' He said this crawling onto the bed near her but still placing himself on top of her. 'Well you don't leave me much choice' Robyn grinned as she felt Ben's weight on top of her. Once the kissing started, Ben had his boxers and trackies off. Robyn sat back as he did foreplay to her. She moaned, but when she closed her eyes, she saw Taylor. She opened them quickly expecting to see Taylor's face but it was Ben. She decided to not close her eyes and just look into Ben's eyes. Once he entered her, overwhelmed by his size and length Robyn clasped onto Bens back tightly and bit his shoulder turning the pain into pure pleasure. After 20 minutes of vigorous sex Robyn really wanted to climax and she began to gasp and moan louder. 'Oh Taylor!!!' She said as she finally hit orgasm. Ben slowed down at that point, also climaxing but disheartened by the fact she called out her ex fiancée’s name instead of his. He rolled of Robyn and laid next to her. Robyn caught her breath and sat up burying her hands in her face groaning how sorry she was. 'Its a force of habit. I'm sorry..I havnt had sex in..a while and it just came out. I wasn't thinking of him...oh god..that's what your probably thinking. I should go. Yeah. Okay. Right. Where are my knikers? Oh yeah I ddnt bring any..I..' She was blubbering again and Ben couldn't help but smile at this giddy girl in front of him. He had read everything Robyn had been through and decided to cut her some slack. So what if she said Taylors name? She said his a million times during. It was going to take time for her to be fully over Tay and Ben realised that. 'Come here you complete nutter' he said before Robyn could get out of bed 'its okay..don't worry about it. Silly mistake obviously' Robyn sighed in relief. 'I'm a silly woman.' Ben smiled and wrapped his arms around her. The two drifted of into a deep sleep. Unfortunatly for Robyn her dreams weren't about Ben. Only Tay

Chapter Six - Caramel Latte

After Mia and Robyn had their 'fight' the two hardly said a word to each other. It was hard to stay mad at one another because they were ever so close. So when Robyn left the flat without telling Mia were she was going, Mia couldn't help but feel lost and worried for her. She felt as though Robyn was throwing everything away meeting up with Taylor. Both had finally gotten to the stage of moving on and had met two great guys who genuinely had feelings for them. Sure, their relationship techniques were different but it worked. Mia wanted to act her age and have a bit of fun. Twenty-one is the age to go all out and not to be married and swamped with children. For some reason, Robyn couldn't see the joy in meaningless sex and relationships that lack commitment. Opposites attract. Sooner or later the girls will go back to normal. Tay and Zac's return into their lives was only a minor speed bump on their journey to finding what they truly want. But boy, it made things complicated.
Robyn had been texting Taylor all morning. Every time her phone went of her heart would skip a beat and a smile would creep up on her face. She had let Tay know that Mia would not be joining them, due to 'work', and it would just be them two for the afternoon. As she drove down the quiet street of St John's Wood she became very light headed realising how close to a confrontation she was. She parked her blood red Volkswagen outside the quaint cafe Rouge and patiently waited for Taylor outside on the Patio. She had ordered herself a White Cafe Mocha and Taylor a Caramel Latte with skimmed milk. 'Oh and make sure it's hot. God help anyone who gives this man a cold coffee' Robyn said to the waitress putting her sunglasses over her brunette hair, taking her fringe back. She turned smiling to herself, realising the sun was being blocked from her view....by a 6ft2 blonde.
'You always knew how I liked my coffee' Taylor said smiling down at Robyn who automatically turned a shade of red.

He took a seat next to her and thanked the waitress who brought their drinks. After mindless chatter and awkward smiles Robyn plucked up her courage and asked Taylor 'what are you doing here Tay?' Her smile turned into a blank stare as she watched his eyes revert away from her.
'I know you told me not to call, write or find you, but we where in London by coincidence..and me and Zac called a few people to find out where you guys were based..and here we are' Taylor said and Robyn gave a sceptical look towards him.
'Is that a lie Jordan Taylor Hanson' she said flicking her hair back and chuckling slightly. Taylor remained silent but couldn't control his smile and nodded. He put his hands over his eyes to hide his embaressed expressions. Robyn watched as Taylors laughs turned into sobs. He looked up at her with a hurt look in his eyes.

 'You look...great. Like really great.' He sniffed and composed himself. Robyn's expression didn't change. She wanted so bad to tell him that she still loved him and that it was Leila who made her run. But she knew she couldn't. 'Hayfever?' She asked handing him a napkin. She didn't mean to not sound sympathetic but she knew if she hugged him she wouldn't let him go. Instead she placed her hand over his and rubbed it softly. Taylor could feel the electricity he always did whenever Robyn touched him. He couldn't get over how healthy she looked, even if he did walk in on her doing hardcore drugs. 'Ahem, so..' Taylor said moving his hand away remembering something. 'You and Mia seem to have found yourselves pretty nice looking guys' it hurt Taylor to even say those words. He prayed Robyn would shake her head and say the guy she was with was just a friend. No such luck. He watched as she slowly nodded her head looking away. What the hell, he was going to say it. 'Have you slept with him' her head snapped towards him, shocked. 'No I haven't. Not like it concerns you' This was a touchy subject for Robyn. She never even explained to Mia why she hasn't slept with Ben yet. She had lost her virginity to Taylor and it will always be his. She had only ever slept with Taylor (minus the guy she got back at him for) and she felt the next guy she would sleep with, she would loose total connection to Taylor. She noted how Taylor perked up after she had said she hadn't slept with anyone since him. She also thought, what the hell, 'have you been with anyone since...' She couldn't even finished but he figured out what she meant. He sighed and took a sip of his coffee. 'I went on a really bad spiral after you left. I found myself drinking in sleezy bars and talking to really...unattractive women. Erm..I bumped into Leila one night and we got talking and drinking. I woke up in bed with her the next morning and..yeah, basically we had sex.' Robyn couldn't believe what she was hearing. The girl that drove her away had found her way into Taylors bed. If only he knew she thought to herself. She replied in a stern voice 'so your dateing her?' He quickly replied. 'No no, God no!' He chuckled. 'It was just a one night stand...its still you Robyn. Always, like you said in your last letter to me.' Robyn's heart felt like it was going to jump out of her chest. She wanted to runaway and cry. Instead she stood up and calmly put her things in her blood red Hermes and turned to Taylor who was looking up at her. 'I'm sorry Tay, but I really have to go.' She gave him one more look and made her way to the car, dropping a tenner as she went. Taylor noticed and ran quickly to get it for her. 'Robyn, wait!' He shouted. Robyn groaned and turned to him. 'I have nothing more to say...oh thanks.' She said as he handed her the tenner. Their hands held onto eachother a second longer then they should have done. 'We're staying in London for a month.' Taylor said as Robyn sat in her car. She shut the door and drew down the window 'if this is some crazy scheme for you and Zac to get me and Mia back, your wasteing your time.' She started up the car. 'Won't hurt to try Doll face' she turned to him remembering her old nickname and gave him a small smile. She drove away from him and watched him in her rear view mirror. He watched her drive until she turned the corner and was out of sight. He had to get her back. How? He had no idea..but somehow. 'Tomorrow is another day' he said to himself

Chapter Five - Party time

''So, what time is Ben coming?'' Mia asked Robyn. The two had been going our for two months now. She had made the choice of not sleeping with Ben until she was absolutely sure that she could handle a relationship so soon after it hadn't been long since her and Taylor were seconds away from being Mr and Mrs.
''Anytime now actually,'' Robyn replied looking at her watch with a smile. It definitely could be said that the two had entirely different approaches going through their relationship. Ashley and Mia had also been dating for two months, and they had wasted now time in consumating this. For Mia this was just a bit of harmless fun, which is why she refused to have the label of 'girlfriend'. DING DONG. Mia opens the front door to meet Ben and Ashley,
''See you too have already become acquainted'' Mia said hugging Ashley and giving him a passionate kiss. Ben directed himself towards Robyn, but. His arms round her waist and kissed her,
''Hey gorgeous, I've got the wine and DVD's'' his flawless British accent would have had anyone fall at his feet. Which is why Robyn would have to work to keep him.
The girl's had opted for their favourite romantic comedy 'The Sweetest Thing' which the boys rolled their eyes at when Robyn pressed play but were more interested in making the girls happy then watching a gory thriller. As the film finished, they had polished off three bottles of Pino Grigio and taken occasional breaks from making out to laugh at the funniest moments. Not wanting Ben to leave she asked,
''The night is still young what shall we do?'' Looking at Ben. Before he could reply Mia jumped up with excitement,
''Let's have a party! Invite everyone!'' She looked around at the three of them, looking for a collective agreement. She took Robyn's hand and led her to the kitchen not even waiting for an answer.
''Call people, come on, I want some excitement'' she said. The boys had already gotten up and were discussing something in hushed voices so the girls couldn't make out what it was but just assumed they were getting to know each other better.
''Just popping out babe.'' Ashley said half way out th door with Ben behind him. Before the girld could question where they had already closed the door behind them.
''Probably getting some drinks for the party'' Robyn said hopefully as Mia sent group texts to everyone she knew.
People had already started arriving, even people they had only met once were there but still the boys had not returned. As. Robyn heard the door open she turned to see Ben walk through, who she had alread given a spare key to and Ashley who followed, who wasn't even close to getting so much as a toothbrush in their bathroom let alone a key. Ben came up to Robyn, swung an arm around her neck, placed. A firm kiss on her forehead,
''Time for some real fun baby,'' Ben said with a slight menace in his voice taking out a large plastic zipped bag filled with a white powder, and removing his arm from around Robyn and from his other pocket took out what looked like a generous handful of weed , held together with cling film. Her and Robyn had experimented with a cocktail of drug in their college years but once they moved to LA the boys wouldn't have any of it. Robyn looked at Mia, who had an anxious smile on her face, knowing that there tolerance didn't cover the amount of drugs Ben had. Ashley and Mia had occasionally done pills, MD or smoked weed at parties, but only in small doses.
The boys had already said that they didn't want to share the stash between anyone apart from the four of them. Hours past of them sniffing through rolled up noted, popping pills and smoking spliffs on the balcony. They had completed the stereotypes of the celebrity parties. This had played havoc with their heads and emotions and all Mia could think about was bedding Ashley, and funnily enough that's exactly what Robyn wanted with Ben.
Ashley was over at the kitchen raiding the fridge for anything chocolatey or fatty. Mia strolled up to him, closed the fridge, pushed him against it and pushed herself against him. She had that look, she wanted to fuck him there and then.
''Unless you want to here, you better. Lead. The. Way. To. The. Bedroom'' Ashley said in between slowly kissing her neck. Inside the room Mia wasted no time in ripping his clothes off. They were in a mentally entwined grip of kissing and heavy petting. Ashley grabbed Mia's dress that had buttons all the way down the front to tear it open,
''Don't even think about it. This, is Marc Jacob.'' Mia said pushing him onto the bed slowly unbuttoning her way down her dress to reveal a see-through black lace bra, accompanied by a matching, hardly there lace thong. Ashley lay there examining her body and anxiously waited for Mia to come over and have her usual filthy way with him. She climbed on top of him, straddling his already hard dick, she kissed him on the lips, moving down to his neck all while grinding up against him, feeling him on the outside of her knickers. She allowed her lips to slowly move down his chest, to his stomach and she loved to tease him just above his crotch, she would kiss there, playfully move her fingers across, making him throw her off in frustration to be below him. She wrapped her legs around his waist and lifted herself to a comfortable position were they could kiss passionately, making even more horny for him. His hands stroked her collarbone, playful moved his fingers around the shape of her boobs. His hand crawled under her underwear and he playfully teased her until she was moaning for him, two fingers, three. He had incredible technique and knew exactly how much force to use when. She wanted to pleasure him now,
''You're turn'' she said flickering her hair out of her face moving down. She took him large throbbing penis and playing played with the head with her tongue. He grabbed a chunk of hair and added a bit more force, signalling he wanted her to go all the way. She knew exactly how to work him. After endless foreplay and both were appropriately lubricated she mounted him, and allowed him to easily enter inside her. He lifted himself slightly up with his arm and started riding. With every thrust there would be surge of pleasure running through her body. One thing had to be said of drugs, sex on MD was amazing! They tried new stuff that she had never thought, and would probably be to self conscious doing when sober.
Robyn was left mingling with Ben when they had disappeared to the bedroom, she could feel the effects of the drugs, everything seemed funny and nothing seemed real

She could tell Ben's mind was preoccupied, she sat next to him,
''what's up?'' She slurred looking into his eyes. Secretly she had an suspicion to what he wanted but wasn't sure if she could give him that.
''Babe, you know you mean so much to me. And I know sex isn't what this relationship is about but I'm starting to feel that you just don't want to be close to me.''. He said defeated. This wasn't the case at all for Robyn, he meant a lot to her as well, which is exactly why she doesn't want him hurt by the fact that he potentially be the result of rebound after Tay. But of course she didn't want to admit that,
''You're just going to have to trust me, that's not the case. I'm going to get a drink.'' Standing, desperately needing a glass of water for her dry throat, that felt like she was swallowing razor blades. At the tap she saw out the corner of her eye she saw the door and two figures walking in, probably more of Mia's random contacts. They came over to counter and in a dazed state, without looking properly who it was, Robyn offered them drinks,
''What can I get you boys?'' She asked. When she didn't get an answer she looked up and felt like she had been winded by a punch in the guts.
''You should know what I like by now'' looking at her with a stern expression on his face but with a sad and disappointed expression in his eyes, probably after walking in to find powder sprinkled on the table, pill down the sink and the potent smell of weed that lingered in the air. She couldn't believe Taylor was here. She couldn't handle this, she didn't want him here, he couldn't see her like this. She grabbed a bottle of red wine, poured it into a plastic cup.
''There you go, was there anything else?'' She asked coldly. It broke her heart to act like this but Ben couldn't see him, it would ruin everything.
''Yes, I want speak to you, have to see you, I...'' He was interrupted by the familiar sound of Zac's voice,
''So where's Mia?'' He shouted across the room. He would create such a scene if he saw Mia in her state with Ash. Just as Robyn what to say to Zac, Mia stumbles out her room, barely covered with Ashley's metallica t-shirt with a small zoot in between her polished fingers without even realising that everybody had left and who had replaced them.
''Woah, that something to replace my energy!'' She said winking towards Mia grabbing a red bull from the fridges. You could feel the tension in the room and zac's temper slowly bubbling.
''Look's like they're getting along fine.'' This familiar voice made Mia jump and freeze, praying it wasn't true she turned to see a limp, lifeless Zac staring back at her.
Ashley couldn't have picked a worst time to come out of the bedroom. All his instincts thrusted Zac towards Ashley to pin him against the wall, holding him against his throat he screamed,
''What the fuck are you playing at! Introducing her again to all this shit! Do you know how vulnerable she is?'' Ben rushed over to try and pry him off, he didn't have to try very hard, Zac didn't see the point in putting up a fight and walked towards the door, stopping at Mia, he just starred, you could tell he was trying to put something into words but just shook his head and left, followed by Tay,
''I'll be in touch.'' He said to Robyn just before he left. Mia had no idea that Ashley knew who those guys were, that he had spent several nights reading new articles on google about her past life in LA. Knowing how much Zac had once meant to Mia he went over a gave her a big hug. Looking at Ben, who had also taken Ashley's advice to google Robyn knew about the miscarriage, the threats and the jilting at the alter. With this he too went to embrace Robyn.
The next morning the girls woke curled up next to their boys, the scene would almost have been romantic if it wasn't for their banging headaches, heavy eyes and dry throats. The girls emerged from their rooms at the same time, Mia in her usual hang over attire, big black sunglasses. Robyn searched her head for memories of last night and stopped in her tracks,
''Mia. Were Taylor and Zac here last night?'' She asked with worry, not really sure why she was asking her, she was way more gone than her. Even hearing his name made Mia feel sick, not on his part, but what she had done to him.
''Babe, we were tripping last night, someone could have made us believe we had flown in a flying saucer through the universe.'' Mia jokingly replied, trying to make light of the conversation. This seemed a plausible excuse for the circumstances and Robyn accepted it. As Robyn was making a cup of strong black coffee, her phone bleeped next to her.
Robyn stood in front of Mia who was sitting on the sofa with a ghastly expression plastered to her face. Robyn didn't know what to say.
''Mia! tripping, really? Taylor, coffee.'' She was clearly flustered and paced up and down the room talking nonsense,
''What am I going to do? I want to but no, not going there again. Finished.'' Mia was sick of blubbering,
''Can you make sense already please.'' She said with a slight annoyance directed to Robyn. She looked around at Mia with fear and confusion in her eyes,
''Tay and Zac did come round yesterday, he text me asking for us to meet them for coffee...and I agreed.'' Robyn added quickly at the end. Mia starred at Robyn, not being able to understand how this was happening or how Robyn could seriously think about going coffee with them.
''No way Robyn, I know how this is going to end, we didn't come all the way over here to start what we left in LA again!'' Her voice slowly increasing. Robyn couldn't believe what she was hearing, no matter how much Mia tried to hide it, it was obvious that Mia was missing her life back in LA and more than anything, Zac.
''Don't you even want to see Zac? See how he's coping, I mean he saw you come out from having sex with your new boyfriend last night.'' Robyn questioned, getting more angry at Mia's couldnt-care-less attitude. But Robyn's only reply was,
''He's not my boyfriend''
''Its like you don't care about him anymore, did you ever?'' Robyn said with a new snide sound in her voice. At this Mia snapped. WHACK. Robyn held her burning cheek,
''Don't you ever think I never cared about him or still don't, do you know what it takes for me not to call him and ask him how his day has been? What it takes for me not to burst into tears whenever I have a moment to think?'' Mia said, with a lump forming in her throat and the beginning of her eyes burning filling with tears. And with that she left.

Chapter Four - Need your Touch

‘Robynnnn! I have nothing to wear!’ Mia yelled from her room. Robyn simply sighed and made her way through to Mia’s room with nothing but a towel wrapped around her. She watched as her best friend flopped down on her bed face down, acting very dramatic. She rolled her eyes and made her way into the room-like wardrobe. She scanned the countless dresses and picked up a salmon coloured dress with frills on it. It complimented Mia’s figure and tiny, thin legs. She dropped it next to Mia on the bed and added ‘wear your brown heels with it’ and with that she walked out to decide what she was going to wear. Mia looked up and smiled, Robyn always knew what to wear. So she quietly got ready at a steady pace.

‘Shit we’re going to be late!’ Mia again yelled over to Robyn who swiftly walked in putting in a gold dangly ear ring. She was wearing a baby doll beetroot dress which she loved and her hair was up in a bull dog clip, still slightly wet.

‘ARGH, I still have to do my hair!’ Robyn gasped as she took one look in the mirror. Mia studied Robyn for a second and said ‘Why don’t you leave it up like that, it looks really sophisticated that way’ Convinced Robyn grabbed her purse and the two made their way in their extreme high heels to the Limo waiting outside for them.

‘Oh my god, what if we meet Ben Barnes tonight?!’ Mia jumped excitedly applying her lipstick in between red lights. Robyn looked out the window and simply smiled ‘If I saw Ben Barnes tonight, my life would actually be complete. You excited to see Ashley?’ Robyn asked making conversation.

Mia nodded and grinned with excitement. As the Limo entered Leicester Sq the two girls caught a glimpse of the red carpet and the screaming fans outside. The two stepped out of the Limo as fashionably as they could and were amazed by the screams they were getting from the crowd. They didn’t think that Robyn would be recognised by so many. People were screaming Mia’s name. She was known as the youngest and most successful manager of the solo artists in 2011 and many aspired to be her. Not to mention she was glamorous and beautiful to top it all off. They nodded to each other as they split up to talk to reporters who flagged their attention. Mia walked straight towards NME magazine and began speaking to a man with a microphone.

‘So Mia, how does it feel to be in London on the biggest night of the season?’ He asked trying to sound enthusiastic. As the lights flashed down on Mia she replied ‘Oh it’s absolutely brilliant. It’s great to be here, yeah’ Her shy nature disappeared and she felt ditzy and happy. The interviewer continued, ‘We expected you to be here with Zac Hanson, but it seems your date is Robyn?’ He asked with a sly tone in his voice, expecting to get a rude comment back from Mia. She simply laid a cool smile across her face and replied ‘Oh don’t worry, my dates inside’ and with that Mia walked away and muttered under her breath ‘dick’ once she got out of ear shot. She scanned the carpet looking for Robyn and found her talking to the presenter of MTV LA. ‘Oh no, this can’t be good’ Mia thought to herself and quickly went to join Robyn and listened intently to what the presenter had to say.

‘So, your back in London huh Robyn? How does it feel to be back?’

‘Yeah I really missed being here, and the album is going so well! I never thought I would make it big here’ Robyn replied innocently.

‘So no chance with joining back up with Hanson?...you guys seemed like such a team’ The presenter said swishing her hair back awaiting a reply. Robyn didn’t know what to say. Her tongue wouldn’t let her talk. There was no answer she could think of that would be appropriate for the interview. Noticing how Robyn was struggling to answer Mia intervened.

‘Robyn has no desire to move back to LA or join back with Hanson. We don’t believe it is the right image for her and a solo career is what she needs to make it big’ Mia said confidently. It was not often that Mia saved Robyn from humiliation. It was usually the other way round. However Robyn had come a custom of vulnerability and shyness ever since betraying her fiancée and hid behind Mia’s confident words most of the time. Mia led Robyn away from the interviewer and she gave her a thankful look. After a couple of minutes of signing autographs and hearing fans say ‘How’s Zac and Tay doing?’ the two girls went into the foyer and awaited to be seated. Mia watched out for Ashley as they sat down in their seats. She spotted him just a few rows behind them and waited until his eyes clasped with hers. She got a flutter in her stomach as he grinned and waved at her. She turned back to the screen and watched the titles role up. She couldn’t help herself and she turned once again and photographed Ashley’s image in her head.

After a terrific movie and a long speech from the Director, Mia and Robyn made their way to the after party which was in the same building. Ashley had caught up with them straight after the movie ended with Stephan and Dru. Stephan was excited to see Robyn...pity she didn’t feel the same. He offered to buy her a drink and she accepted, hey...it was a free drink. ‘Just don’t get it all over me this time’ Robyn said with sarcasm in her voice. Stephan sipped his beer and nodded with a smile. Robyn couldn’t help but be rude to guys that annoyed her to the point of insanity. Sadly Stephan was one of these guys. It was hard to shake him of her side for half the night and she decided to grab Mia to go dance to ‘Blow’ by Kesha. The two girls strutted to the middle of the dance floor, making sure all eyes were on them as they shook their hips along to the music. The two loved to dance and learnt most of what they knew from each other. It wasn’t long until Ashley couldn’t control being too far away from Mia and he squeezed his way through the crowd, and Robyn, to slow dance with her.  Mia smiled as he came up slowly behind her and grabbed her waist fitting her into his pelvis. She lifter her arms to touch the back of his neck and the two dirty danced for a while. Mia wanted to face Ash and brought herself into his embrace and looked up into his smiling face. She was content just staying in his protecting arms forever. He noticed the longing look in her eyes and lifted her chin softly up with his hand. He watched as she batted her eye lashes at him and moved his lips towards hers. The two shared a very sensual kiss in the middle of the dance floor. You know, the kind where everything and everyone around you disappear and fireworks go off all around you. As their lips parted Mia couldn’t help but let out a sad sigh as she leaned into Ashley’s empty shoulder.

‘What’s the matter?’ Ash asked curiously.

‘It’s..just good things don’t usually happen to me’ Mia said thinking about all the shit that went down with Zac and their relationship.

‘That’s going to change from now on’ Ash said hugging Mia tightly. She breathed in his fresh cologne and felt happier than she had in months. Nothing could take the smile of her face.

Soon enough, Robyn grew tired dancing on her own and she moved away from the dance floor to find a quiet place to stand. She held her glass of champagne close to her as she leaned against the wall. She looked over at Mia who was laughing over with Ashley on the dance floor. Robyn smiled and was glad to see her best friend laugh again after so many months. She reluctantly got her phone out of her clutch bag and noticed she had no new messages. She went through her contact list and stopped at ‘Taylor’ She stared at his name for a good minute when she impulsively put 141 in front of his number and quickly pressed the dial button. She had to hear his voice whether she responded to his answer or not.

‘Can I get you another one?’ an unfamiliar voice said to Robyn. She looked down at her empty glass and looked up to find a dark, tall and gorgeous man stood a few inches away from her. ‘Hello.....hello? ...Anyone there?’ Robyn snapped down her phone, not even phased by Taylor’s voice and she smiled up at none other then Ben Barnes. She watched as he flagged down a waiter with a tray full of champagne glasses. ‘Thank you’ Robyn said as he handed her the glass full of the sparkling liquid. Both took a swig and looked at each other for a moment. Moments like those Robyn wished she could read men’s minds. Life would be so much easier.

‘Your Robyn Dollan aren’t you?’ Ben finally said breaking the silence. Robyn looked up at him, shocked that she even knew she existed.

‘You know who I am?’ Robyn commented with a confused look on her face.

‘I kinda have some of your songs on my ipod. Mainly covers and duets with Hanson, but yeah, I like your work’ He said taking another sip of his champers.

‘Oh, so you’re the kind of guy who likes his mellow tones?’ Robyn asked sceptically.

He chuckled embarrassed and replied ‘I do listen to other stuff too, don’t worry.’ He looked at her with questioning eyes, a grin appeared on his face as he asked ‘You’re not embarrassed that someone like me listens to you music, are you?’

Robyn gave Ben a look like ‘are you kidding me?’ and simply replied jokingly ‘Yes. You should be ashamed listening to my dead out songs’ She smiled hoping he would get her humour. He laughed throwing his head back and carried on for a few seconds before looking back at Robyn. There was a slight awkward silence between them but Robyn perked up and said ‘Great movie by the way. You were great, i mean you were so inspiring and genuine, I couldn’t keep...my eyes..of you’ Robyn cringed after hearing what she just said.

‘Neither could I’ Ben said leaning in and whispering in her ear. Both laughed and carried on talking through the night. They had both lived in LA and compared London to the sunny streets of America. The amounts they had in common was almost too good to be true and conversation flowed like a river between them. There was a real connection that Robyn had not felt since...well..since Taylor. To top it off, he was Ben Barnes! The sexy dark actor that many women adored and craved his smile. The night was drawing to an end and Robyn noticed Mia in a huff because her feet hurt from the heels. Robyn couldn’t feel anything. She was pretty sure her feet were killing too, but Ben somehow made her forget about all her senses and she only focused on him.

‘Mr Barnes, the car is waiting for you’ a young valet said to Ben.

‘Right, I’ll be over in a second’ Ben said slanting a smile at the guy and turning it into a sad frown when he looked back at Robyn.  ‘I guess i should get going then’ he said in a sigh. Robyn nodded and smiled a goodbye to him. Before she could turn away he gently took her hand and lifted up to his lips. Robyn let her hand be taken by his gorgeous lips and couldn’t help but think ‘I’m never going to wash this hand again’ His cool lips lay gently on top of her feminine hand and she blushed and smiled down at him. The sudden feel of a crinkly piece of paper in the palm of her hand made her frown in confusion and look at Ben. He walked away from her, but not without turning twice back to see if she would read what he had given her. He saw as she read his note which said ‘I need your touch just too damn much’ Robyn smiled remembering him saying that was his favourite song that she sings. Below the quote was written in neat hand writing Ben’s mobile number and email address. Robyn looked up at Ben who was just walking out the door and jumped up in ecstasy. She possessed Ben Barnes personal details! Ignoring Ashley and Mia making out in the Limo, Robyn couldn’t wait but text Ben. She dropped all the rules for waiting 3 days before calling and texted him ‘Very smooth Barnes ;) ‘baby you’re the right Kind of Wrong’ She shut her phone kicking herself for texting him so soon. She sighed and realised she had been out of the game for too long. It wasn’t until she saw her blackberry flashing that she realised Ben had texted her back within the minute! She giggled to herself with every text he sent back. Finally, was she happy again?